Reasons Why I am Going to Hell: A Confessional

[Matty Whitmore]

Day 1:Meet and Greet

First off I am back!! It has been a year since my last Org and I am excited to play again! Last game I was in didn't end well although I did have a wonderful partner, Courtney . Anyways!

Dear Jeff,

You would put me on a tribe with all guys. My strategy to flirt will do no good here. I could have flirted with any of the girls too because really, what's my competition. Richard? Tyson? Come on. Well at least you gave me an active group of dumb asses. I will take it for now.

Sincerely,
MATTY

So I have finally met everyone. Dear lord. I need to start praying more. We have a...diverse, group of people I guess. Whatever everyone is active.

First person I talked to was Kim, she seemed nice, SUPER flirtatious. She is going to be that one that runs her mouth to the girls telling them they can get me to flip because she thinks she has be wrapped around her finger. We will see about that.

Next I talked to Dreamz. He is my saving grace right now. He and I hit it off almost immediately. He can handle me being an asshole, or is at least pretending he can which is all I ask for. There is a lot of potential in an alliance there. Hopefully we can work something out.

Chad and Richard both seem really cool. Jonny is kinda quiet but whatever. Tyson...well Dad...hes an interesting guy, he could go either way with me. Could either be a potential ally or a major threat. I don't think I am ever going to trust him much though. Haven't gotten a chance to talk to the Toms or Jonathan.

Now Brandon..Brandon is an interesting guy. Dreamz believes he is a major pot head who spaces out all of the time. I am on board with that belief. My only hope is that he brought the pot with him because that is the only way I could talk to him right now.

[22:04] Me: Im good, glad we got that all over with
[22:05] Brandon Hantz: Yes

Good try at talking Brandon. Good try. He is that kid that everyone kinda puts up with but ignores for the most part. Fingers crossed he is easily manipulated. By me!

Btw, those avatars, all strategy. Whos going to want to vote out the guy that provided the tribe with avatars? Not these dumb asses hopefully.

This is all I have for now. I will attempt to keep this going but I tend to be hit or miss with confessionals.

[Matty Whitmore]

Day 4: Penis Domination!

2 Challenge, 2 male wins. I mean alright I won't complain. At this rate I'll be sticking around until at least merge. Even if we lost I highly doubt I would be a target at this point. From what I am picking up, the Tom's are not very social and aren't exactly going to be challenge beasts either.

Like I suspected, Dreamz and I have finally agreed to an alliance. We also came up with the single best alliance name in the history of ever.

"The Awful Bitchy Black Men"

This came from when we were talking about how people would describe us and that's how he responded. I was like, "Well that makes two of us." So now that is our alliance name. I mean how wonderful would it be to get to the end and be like yes, you guys lost to the Awful Bitchy Black Men.

We also decided that we are going to incorporate Brandon into our alliance. Just for the hell of it. He could be the biggest pawn in the game. We will end up using him a lot but in the end he would be a great person to take to the end. Right now he would be like a Christina in the end. Who knows if that'll change but for now it's perfect.

I talked to Tyson for awhile last night about non-game related things. He is actually a pretty cool guy. He takes his "Dad" role really seriously so it makes me think he talks to everyone a lot. He is really going to be a major threat later on.

For now I am going to start expanding my conversations to the girls. I'm never one to sit in the same alliance forever so I may need some of them later.

[Courtney]

Hey!! Good luck <3

[Matty Whitmore]

Day 12: Da Fuck?



We almost made it through this long with absolutely no drama. I mean I was bored and all but now, well, we have a game.

Big Tom comes up to me talking about how he thinks it is vital to make him the new dad. I had already voted Tyson so I didn't really want to. I didn't see the point at all. He claimed that Dreamz, Tyson, Fairplay and Chad had an alliance and that Hatch was Tyson's puppet. I just went along with it and still told him I wouldn't change.

I started thinking about it more and realized that if I make him a dad it puts me in an alliance with Tom, Tom and Brandon, and with Toms double vote and Dreamz we would always have majority. I liked the thought of that a lot. I changed my mind and decided to vote Tom.

I then talk to Dreamz and find out there is an alliance with him Tyson, Chad and Fairplay. I was kinda pissed he didn't even mention it to me. He assured me that he was still with me and with us being on either side of the tribe it would work to our advantage. He also said he never planned on sticking with them which I hope is true.

IF we happen to lose and are still a guys tribe I think I am done with this no drama bull shit. I want Tyson out. He is the biggest threat and needs to be dealt with before it becomes a problem. Also if he is making alliances and not including me, that makes him an enemy. He needs to go. Tom and Tom were good with this but Brandon....ugh

He says we need to vote out Fairplay in an attempt to keep the tribe united. Dipshit there is no more "Family" there are two sides. We need to cut off the head of the snake of that side so that we can maybe come back together. Getting rid of Fairplay is not going to do anything but make Tyson work harder. Hopefully I can convince him to do what I want.

I say all of this and there will end up being a switch which fucks up my whole game anyways. Sigh

[Matty Whitmore]

Day 18: This Game Would Be Easier If People Weren't Retarded.

Usually at this point in a game I am overly confident and have an entire set up as to how I'm going to win. That is not the case at all right now.

I am in the wonderful alliance with Big Tom, Brandon and other Tom. Wow. Like our alliance name should be the High Functioning Retards. Big Tom is a nice guy but he loves his power. He really believes he is controlling this game right now. In a sense he is because he is seen as the leader of our alliance but I am in no way influenced by what he thinks. Brandon is super paranoid all the time. He has a different outlook on the game everyday. Tom W...well he is there.

I kinda got forced into this alliance when the other guys on the tribe made their alliance without me. Fuck them. You picked Fairplay over me? Really.

I am afraid of all of the ties Tyson has right now. Tom believes he has a pregame alliance with Chad. He has the alliance with Chad, Rich, Fairplay and Dreamz. He also has a leader alliance with Alexis. They both think they are using each other which is pathetic. One of you will turn on the other it is only a matter of time, hopefully it will be before it is to late for me.

The other tribe honestly annoys the fuck out of me. Chad has recently decided to try and guilt me into throwing the challenge. LMAO. no fucking way am I throwing this challenge. Not when I am in the minority. I don't trust Fairplay at all but I'd rather keep him then Tyson drones.

If we lose, Fairplay is gone. If we lose again I am terrified for Dreamz. I don't think I would be able to get the votes to keep him. Monica is all about the guys allaince of 4 and seems to really want to stay loyal to it, which is actually nice.

Idk for now I am in a weird position. I'm safe until merge which is nice but when merge comes, all hell will break loose.

[Matty Whitmore]

Day 22: My mom always said don't go to Jail because you will be someone's bitch.

Jesus Christ KC I really just can't catch much of a break. I mean I have been immune for 2 votes, most people would be happy about that but I on the other hand enjoy bitching about everything.

The auction went alright. I still haven't talked to Dreamz about what he got but I hope it is something good, if he is really with me. If not I hope it's bad. Big Tom said he got a trip to exile...idk if I believe it or not but we will see, other Tom got an advantage and right now with being in jail everyone seems to forget about my double vote which is nice. That might come in handy since next round will probably be merge and I CANT COMPETE FOR IMMUNITY.

I have been talking to Bri a lot lately. I really like her and hope she can get out of the mess that is her tribe. With PK switching on her it might be tough though. If she goes I am hoping to swing Alexis over with me because I am going to need people to help me vote out the alliance I am in eventually. My Big Hope is that Alexis and Bri both somehow make it and will make an alliance with Dreamz and I. I highly doubt they will both make merge though.

Big Tom's newest idea is for us 9 guys to stick together!

NO!!
NO!!
NO!!

Why the hell would you vote Monica out tonight leaving Fairplay to go back to Tyson. Then let Tyson finish taking out the girls so he can then vote us out. Smart plan Tom, great idea.

I told him that even though I am not voting I am going to be pissed if Monica goes home. She needs to stay in this game. I think her and I can definitely work together at some point and I think she wants Tyson out too which is nice. I am afraid Tom has some sort of deal with Tyson right now and it scares me.

For now Ill just sit here twiddling my thumbs because I'm in jail. Probably getting butt raped. NBD.

[Matty Whitmore]

Day 28: I Am Going To Win, Their Words Not Mine.

This game has become like trying to teach a Special Ed gym class. There is a lot of running around flailing your arms, but nothing is really getting accomplished.

A lot has happened since my last update so I am going to try and summarize. Basically, if anyone I should be the person who won, "Who has alliances with everyone." I am pretty sure with the exception of PK I have an alliance with everyone.

Dreamz left and I no longer had my #1 person so I turned to Brianna. Her and I got close and are now to the point that we have a final 3 with Alexis, so there is option number 1. She semi trusted me up until I told her about Kelly trying to get her as the vote last round and how I saved her. I really didn't do all that much but she thinks I did which is all that matters.

I really think of everyone Monica is my #1. She is loyal and goes along with basically everything I say. She would be perfect to sit in the end against unless the jury was bitter.

My alliance of 4 is cracking and I don't even have to get blamed for it. Tom W is obviously in an alliance with Kelly and has put a target on his back. She should be going tonight and he should be going next if I have it plotted out right. The best part is Big Tom and Brandon might go along with it too so I will get to final 8 with no enemies.

Tyson and I have started talking since Hatch went. I think we are good but there is still something to that guy I can't put my finger on. He is sneaky and I don't trust him fully but I don't think he will be trying to write my name down anytime soon either.

I would like to say I have some sort of a plan right now but I really don't. It is all just going to well right now. Everyone thinks of me as one of their closest allies and most of it is because I am tolerable to talk to. They all hate each other which almost makes it to easy for me, but I'm not complaining.

[Matty Whitmore]

Day 37: Clearly I Don't Give A Fuck


We shall start with the vote that Kelly went. I made an alliance with Brianna and Alexis to the end. I really wasn't sure how far I would go with it, but hey options open! I really liked Bri and did trust her quiet a bit. Sad that she is gone .

Tom W. and Fairplay decide it is a good idea to start a "Save PK" chat. HAHA how did that work for you two. They also thought it would be a good idea to throw my name around. To bad Bri, Alexis, Brandon and Tyson all told me about it and refused to vote me. After Bri left I noticed that Monica and Big Tom both got distant with me. They no longer trust me because I voted Tom W. Whatever. I could give two shits less at this point. I really had planned on going far with Monica but if she wants to be more boring than watching paint dry go for it. The last conversation I had with her literally started and ended with "KK."

So Tom W decides he is going to call me out for voting him. Oh you dumb fuck that was a stupid idea. We argued for sometime. He seems to think because he didn't actually vote me it was okay he said my name. Ya, thats how it works in life.

"I didn't actually go through with murdering him so I am pretty sure I should be let off the hook"

Then he proceeds to call me a cheater and insult my game.

ME: Idc what your not getting, If i was saying your name the round before you would have been pissed too
Tom: oh id be pissed too but i wouldnt go running around and voting that person out
Tom: just because i HEARD it
ME: Heard it! I got a copy and paste from the damn chat room from 3 separate people
Tom: and thats not supposed to be even allowed in the rules lol
Tom: but whatever
Tom: clearly u dont read rules
ME: Clearly I dont give a fuck

Tom: u were just too close to brianna but u cudnt get yourself out of your ass and decided to vote me out even tho u know that wasnt the smartest move
Tom: but duly noted that thats how u play
Tom: u play personal
Tom: i play smart

WHO THE FUCK IS HE!?!? Tell me I am not playing smart. Oh fuck off. Go stick your head up Fairplay's ass and choke on his shit.

Anyways, I don't trust that I am not being blindsided this week but Alexis still has the idol so that is always a plus. Brandon also seems to want to work with myself Alexis and Tyson. At this point I am perfectly content with that being the final 4. I might not win but at least people get to the end that actually deserve it.

[Matty Whitmore]

Day 47: I Can See The Finish Line


Well I have gotten rid of my 2 biggest threats back to back. Perfect right? Except for now I am the biggest threat. Woops.

I don't regret either of those votes because they needed to be made in order for me to have a shot at winning this. I am not playing for 2nd so I cannot sit next to someone like Tyson at the end of this game.

My problem now is that I know that Monica and Tom are voting me this week. I NEED Brandon and Alexis to stay with me otherwise I am gone. I don't want to be voted out at final 5. That would fucking suck.

I don't know why I am not trusting Brandon at this point. He has been loyal to me the whole game but right now I am afraid that my target is just to big. I also voted against Alexis last week so I am afraid that she might turn and vote me out.

What I need these people to see is that if I go Monica/Tom will stick together and who the fuck wants to see them in the final 2. Ew.

Brandon has been doing exactly what I have wanted him to do the past few votes. I have been planting little seeds in his head and then letting him come to me with some brilliant idea that he has come up with. I actually let him "convince" me to vote with Tyson and Alexis for Big Tom even though I was planning on it a LONG time ago. He also came up with the idea of taking the girls to final 4. Lets hope he is still going for that plan because if not it is good bye to me.

Well hopefully this is not my last confessional in this game, but if it is I have no regrets.